I can't connect

I hate this feeling.

why would I want to connect with anyone?

does anyone truly understand me?

no, you don't. all you do is hurt me.

a broken child. a ghost.

someone who never mattered in the first place.

that's lain. that is rei.

that's me!

I go home at the end of the day; forgotten.

I'm alone, and thats okay. it's always been that way.

who would I be, if I weren't me?

have you ever met someone like me? another me? another trope in a story?

I'll die one day, and that's okay. I'm not scared anymore.

. . .. Where was I?